I had full intentions.
The plan was to pray and to spend time with God. Reflect. Maybe even journal.
But then… I just wanted to take a quick look on TikTok. You know, real quick. That “quick” turned into Reddit, which turned into Red Note, which turned into an hour I’ll never get back and a soul that didn’t feel any fuller.
That used to be my night routine – I’d sit down or lie down with my phone before my shower “just for a while.” Just one more video accumulated into dozens more. By the time I snapped out of it, I was not only late but spiritually drained and a little cranky. I started kicking myself.
So, recently, I made a small but surprisingly life-altering adjustment: I leave my phone downstairs. If it’s important, they will call back.
Yes. Instead of bringing it upstairs with me and giving myself the perfect excuse to “just scroll for a bit,” I go straight from to shower – no TikTok detour. I come down afterward, more awake, and less tangled in other people’s opinions, drama, or dance videos.
Another thing, my PC used to stay on like it was running a marathon for the kingdom of distraction. Now, I’m consciously hibernating the PC earlier each night – not to be super spiritual, but just to make space. Space for stillness. Space for prayer. Space for an honest, sometimes clumsy, usually sleepy conversation with God before bed.
And I’ve noticed something.
God doesn’t need hours of our time to meet us. He doesn’t demand perfect posture or poetic prayers. But he does want our hearts – and he meets us in the space we make.
Now, this isn’t some holy halo above my head story where I float into my mornings and evenings bathed in holy light, quoting Leviticus before breakfast. I still struggle. I still slip. You better believe it. There are nights that I fall asleep mid-prayer and wake up wondering if I said “amen.”
But I think God understands. And I think He honours the effort to come close – even if it’s two steps forward, one scroll back.
So, if you’ve found yourself caught in a scroll spiral, stuck between what you meant to do and what actually happened… remember you have grace from God. You’re not alone. It’s time to leave the phone downstairs. Hibernate the distractions earlier. Open up space – just a bit -to be still, breathe, and remember that the God of whole universe wants to hear from you.
Even if you’re half-asleep.
Even if you don’t have the right words.
Even if all you’ve got is five minutes and a “Lord, help me,” with or without the water works.
That’s still a good start.
“Be still, and know that I am God.” (Ps 46:10)
Today, just make room. God’s not asking for perfection – just presence.
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